Mango had secondary glaucoma on her left eye since we adopted her.
We knew from the very beginning that this might end in surgery but I was fighting for her affected eye to be saved like I was fighting for my own sight. 🙈
We were told that it’s time for that eye to be removed each time we took her to the clinic for a routine checkup, vaccinations or deworming for the past 3 years, since the pressure started to grow inside it. They told us that it would be better for her to remove it, because it is causing her discomfort and in time might even start to hurt. They told us that it would be easier for us, that there is absolutely no reason to keep that eye, but I wouldn’t budge. I wasn’t ready. I didn’t want her eye to be touched. So we always tried another treatment and another one and another one… Finding new and new excuses every time. Looking for a second, a third, a 27th opinion, and hoping that someone will find a cure. 🤭
As I have an eye phobia (not even sure this is a real thing, but anyway…) I find eyes very strange. I also think that organs shouldn’t be exposed. So why are eyes outside our body? It just doesn’t seem right, does it?
So at the beginning, it was very difficult for me to clean and treat her eye daily. I was freaking out, I found it disgusting and super creepy. So I really don’t know when things started to change. When I actually started to find her affected eye so damn beautiful and when it started to grow on me. But it did. Considering how gross I found it at first, it was surprising for me how obsessed I became with it. I was acting like my life will end if Mango’s eye will have to be removed. 😅 Just like in fairy tales, you know? The villains who always keep their power in small animals or different objects which once destroyed, will make these characters just like any other earthborn. 😂 I felt like my superpower is hidden in Mango’s eye.
So I became crazy, and we were postponing this surgery over and over again. For almost 2 years, until in September 2019 I made the final decision. Yeah. Almost 1 year ago. So why am I telling you this now? Because I am so f*cking proud of myself. And I’m even more proud of her. Beauty, you see, has nothing to do with things like this. She was beautiful before, with her weird galaxy-looking eye. And she is also beautiful now, without it. She didn’t lose her beauty. I didn’t lose any of my superpowers. 🤭 We made the right choice, and I want to encourage you to make this step if you are or you’ll ever be in this situation. The sooner the better. Don’t ever let your pets suffer because of your fears.
The healing process was fast, it took like 6 weeks. Once we were trough it, I started to realize how silly I was. What seemed so wrong before started to feel pretty normal in time. I mean… With her black eye patch she looks like she was born to be a pirate. ☠️