Time to Stop

How do you know when it’s time to stop? You don’t. But you will surely feel it.

I remember I couldn’t wait to grow up, in order to be able to do whatever the f*ck I want. And I did. I did grow up and I finally started to do what I wanted. Staying up late, eating whatever I want, mostly sweets until I trow up (it’s crazy because I don’t even love sweets πŸ˜…), watching a whole season of a tv series in one day. You know, stuff like that. Stuff that adults would never let me do normally. And here I am now, like 10 years later, forcing myself to respect the same stupid rules.

To get enough sleep, to eat healthy, to do my yoga exercises daily, to wake up early, to clean, to cook, to be more organized BLABLABLA.

I can usually do things the way you HAVE TO, without any problems, you know? Somehow it seems natural to me. But then, from time to time, I feel like I need a break. I want to do other things. Different things. Or the same things in a different way. And I do. Because I’m a grownup and I do whatever the f*ck I want. Or do I?

Lately I started to clean less, not twice a day but once in two days. I started to cook less. We were eating Verdino hamburgers like 3-4 times a week, pizza at least once a week, mushrooms and then mushrooms again… We stopped doing stuff around the house each weekend and started to travel more. On Fridays we left Cluj and we came back only on Sundays or even Mondays sometimes. Basically we did whatever the f*ck we wanted to. And guess what. It only felt good for a while.

Then yesterday we finally agreed that we need to stop. Now that we do the things we want the way we want to, we feel tired af. We feel it’s too much and we miss our routine and normality. πŸ™„ We miss eating burgers only once a month, doing stuff around the house, seeing progress… Traveling not necessarily less, but rather for longer periods of time. To spend less time on the road, and more time where we went to.

Wtf is wrong with us really? Doing things right feels bad, doing things in a different way feels bad as well… Why is life so complicated? πŸ™„ Can’t wait for this normal week to end in the most normal, lazy and cuddly way, to collect new memories like these with ALL the monsters, Netflix, healthy food and everything in between. What are your plans for this week?


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